So I know I always say this but I am sorry that I have been on a hiatus. As most of you know I am going to school along with the bazillion other things that are going on in our lives right now. I am currently taking my last math class that I will have to take until I go for my Bachelors and am also in Anatomy and Physiology. This has, by far, been the most stressful semester I have had. I am pretty much in the thick of the "real stuff" as far as completing my prerequisites to apply for Nursing school. I was doing some research the other day and although I can apply to Nursing school for next Fall, I still have A LOT of general ed requirements to fulfill. I get that my counselor wants me to apply because of the waiting list at Pima but there will be NO way that I will be able to take any additional classes once I do start Nursing school. We are talking about 22 credit hours per semester.
Another obstacle in knowing that, is I won't even be able to think about going when I get accepted unless we have another vehicle. These classes are not something you get to pick and choose, they are chosen for you. If you can't work it out then, tough, and you have to go through the whole process all over again. I feel like it's all going so much faster than I ever expected. I had hoped my kids would all be in school by the time I was doing to hardcore classes. That doesn't seem like that will happen so again I am stuck thinking about what I will do with my two little ones. I have mixed feelings about all of this. Sometimes I feel like maybe I do need to slow down and really enjoy staying home with my babies. I don't want to send them to daycare and let someone else raise them. I don't want to miss a single thing and I feel like I already sacrifice so much just taking two classes at a time. Richard is starting T-ball this weekend and looking at the schedule I already know that I am not going to be able to make it to see his games. I ran into this problem last year with Aiden's baseball team. Aiden has a lot of school functions that fall on Thursday's that I can't make because, again, I have class. The classes that I am taking now aren't just show up to class, study for an hour and fly through. I spend more time studying than I spend in an actual classroom. This means later nights. (Which I didn't think was even possible due to Gianna's non-sleeping habits) Earlier mornings and learning to function on very little sleep.
I have to give it to the mom's out there that seem to have it all on point. Some day's my house is a jungle and it makes me really reconsider if doing what I am doing is worth it. In the long run I know this is going to help my family tremendously financially and it also gives me a sense of pride in accomplishing something that I have wanted for a long time. I still have that pang of guilt that I am not as present in their lives as I am used to being. I feel like my choice to have children was a choice to put their well-being above everything else so I can't help but feel a little selfish when I have to leave them to study or I miss out on things because I have to go to school. I guess I have a lot of back and forth and today is one of those days where I am just having a hard time.
I suppose I should end the sob fest and give you a little update on what all my little monkies are up to these days!
Aiden started 1st grade in August and absolutely LOVES his teacher. Last year he had a hard time communicating and was pretty reserved. This year I have been going in on Tuesdays and volunteering in his classroom and his teacher said that he is finally coming out of his little shell. We had open house yesterday, we sadly had to rush through it but he was pretty excited to show me all of the things he was doing in class. He is learning some sign language and thought that signing the word "insect" was pretty funny. There is also a little girl in his class that has a crush on him. It is adorable! His dad signed him up to take golf lesson's on Saturdays so he has been enjoying that. We are still working on trying to get him into another sport but we have some conflict because of games falling on visitation days with his dad.
Richard had his first two t-ball practices this and last week. His first game is this Saturday. It was interesting to say the least....He is VERY high energy and so he had a hard time standing still and listening to directions. He was so happy and excited the whole time we practiced on the first day. The second practice he had a harder time and didn't really want to participate. Hopefully this Saturday he does ok in a game setting. He is still all boy for sure and is really into Power Rangers at the moment. He now wants us to call him Jayden. I think it's the white ranger...not positive. He is also trying to convince his dad to let him be a Power Ranger for Halloween.
Gianna......Where to start with my little Princess....Gianna is just all diva. She is so funny and prissy and full of energy! She loves playing with her brothers and she is starting to boss them around a bit. She calls Richard "papi" so we hear a lot of, "Papi NO!!" around here. She is still a daddy's girl and loves to sing and dance. She is our best eater and most days will eat all of her food and whatever her brother's don't finish. She loves to cuddle and give besitos. She is talking so much about everything! She can't quite say the "c" or "k" sound so they come out a "t" or "p". She asks for her "milp"(milk) or her "tup" (cup). Tells the boys to "be tiyet" (quiet). Before bed she wants to give everyone "tisses".
Rick and I are doing great! We are really making an effort to make time for one another especially because of how busy we have become. He took me to dinner on Tuesday for my Birthday so that was nice to have a little bit of quiet. We always laugh because we finally get a break and all we do is talk about the kids the whole time we are without them! He still gives me butterfly's after all this time and I am more in love with him today than I ever have been! I don't know how many of you read this but thanks for taking the time to finish my random ramblings. Sometimes it's a little bit of therapy in itself just to give my thoughts an outlet into a little but of structure. Hope you're all well.
Until next time.
S
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